As I sit here, Isolated and rethinking my life, it’s hard not to think about you, your smile, your laugh, your smile.
It’s really annoying that I can’t get you off my mind, you captivate my mind like the rush of a line, traveling up your nose for the first time, feeling that rush of strength and power, fearless, all I’ve been doing is try to kick you as a habit.
I honestly can’t believe we have got to the point of silence, when we know each other better than anyone and now you are silent and forcing me to do the same.
The pain, the regret and why can’t I go back and stop myself from feeling the ways I did, the stupid thoughts that ran through my head, I guess when you fly too close to the sun and you don’t understand how you got so lucky, you eventually get burnt.
And this burnt me up, I can’t have any feelings towards other people, can’t see myself with anyone else.
It’s stupid but it’s how I feel, I know why the silence is needed on your end, I hope you are being safe in these uncertain times and I know your future is bright as you are someone who puts their mind to anything and will kill it.
I know you are furthering your studies and making new roads to a new life, anyone who knows me will know that the following is hard for me to say.
I hope you find yourself and whoever comes into your life should worship the ground you walk on, treat you like gold and know that your loyalty is to a fault.
Just know I love you and always will, I am happy that I got the chance to be that close to your sun and had the honour to be the person you once called “Poof” , I still believe you are my person but I will find you in the next life time and I won’t make the same mistakes.
That is a promise.