So here I am, alone and in such a state of unbelief, can’t believe I got played the way you did, the promises you made were broken, my biggest fear realized.
So, I can be sad all the time, right? I kind of knew you would do this, I knew you wouldn’t see the value in us, in me, and in our future.
All I’ve done over the last 7months was do everything to make you happy, make you smile every day, putting my problems aside as they weren’t important to you, and made you feel shitty or “hurt”, but that was just your way of manipulating me so you could take advantage of me, who knew I was just a distraction for you till you were done and find something better.
I say this and am sounding very bitter, as much as you chose to use me, but I at least got to spend time with someone I loved more than myself, someone who I cared for and wanted to make you feel loved and cared for.
I must say I am happy you want to fix yourself but pretending to go to therapy and using that as an excuse to leave I find cowardly and gutless if you had told me this was your plan before you left I think I would have been better, I don’t think things would have gone the way it did.
I do wish you the very best and wish you would notice how much I love you and wanted to make you happy but I think you didn’t know what love was and is, I don’t think you were ever “Inlove” with me, I don’t doubt that you love me as I have felt that but not “in love” with me, I do believe you knew what you were doing and knew you wanted out before it ended but had to leave this city to do it over a message.
I do believe I am worth a chat but yet you now completely ignore my life and ignore that I was a part of it.
You are finally free as you say and finally out of this toxic relationship as you believe, I do wish you could have just been honest from the start.